Tuesday, August 15, 2006
ahhhh.
didnt go to school today.
had a bad diarrhoea last night.
and of course this morning.
but i guess its alright now le bah.
haiis.
took a very good rest though.
to prepare myself for the upcoming exams.
LOL.
im seriously not ready!
anyway i have many many things that i want to say
to my dearest xy!
hmm.
im glad we toked today.
im really glad to find out how you actually felt.
im serious.
all the while..i felt it was ws who snatched you away from us.
away from me.
in the past, you have showed me that..only he is in your world.
and of course we are no longer needed.
but xy ni bian ler.
you finally woke up and realised our presence.
our importance.
i always felt that ws has entered your heart.
and you have chased us out.
no longer having a space for this friendship to get in.
now like what you have said,
ni zhang da ler.
and assured me that i have always been in your heart.
in that very special place.
just that in the past.you couldnt see us.
just that you didnt turn on the lights to realise we were there.
in your eyes you could only see him.
now,its my turn to let you know.
we have never left you.
never.
its just that we were disappointed in you.
we felt that we could no longer get in and stay there.
thats why.
but you have never left us.
never.
never in mine.
if you were to try and find me.
you will realise.im not far away.
i am really not.
give me a call and i'll be there.
i really will.
we are so near.yet so far.
but fear not.
from now on.just give me a call ok?
we will go down to liao tian!
back to our old sweet times.
you have always been my closest fren.
and you will continue to be.
like what i always say,
i wont forsake you till the day you forsake me.
so be prepared,for im going to stick to you for life.
from now one,every sec,bear in mind.
im always here for you girl.
ALWAYS.
i love you,girl.
i really do.
mwahs.
hmm..thats about it.
but the conversation with xy really touched my heart.
really.
it felt so heartwarming.
and i welcome my old sweet her back.
or perhaps she has never been gone.
she was just lost.
lost like me.
losing her way,away from us.
her words made me smile.
but made me cry.
im sorry if i ever made you feel that you are all alone.
im sorry that i made you felt that we are away from you.
im sorry that you felt lost.
im sorry that i made you felt neglected.
im sorry that i made you felt that i was taken away.
im sorry to make you feel that we are far far away,never here for u.
im sorry for everything that i made you feel.
but fred not.
im back
you are back.
and of course we are all back to the times.
the old oldie times.i love them.
i love this feeling.
i love you.
i love us.all of us.
-boy,
what happened to you?
i hope you are fine.
i know you dont wished to share.
but its ok.
i know when you feel like sharing,
you will.
and if you feel that you cannot take it anymore
and urgently needed someone,
feel free to find me ok?
im always here.
please dont treat this as an empty promise.
because i have never said it out of any moment of folly.
or for any fun.i meant what i say.
no matter what,
you are not alone ok?
or maybe never alone.
i love you.
To SL:
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR O LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL
I WISHED YOU ALL YOUR LUCK.
PLEASE DO NOT LET FEAR TO TAKE CONTROL IN YOU.
PLEASE DO NOT BE LIKE ME,
AND LET THE HISTORY REPLAYED ITSELF.
I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF
AND HAVE FAITH IN GOD.
JUST DO YOUR BEST,
GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT,
AND LEAVE ALL THE REST TO GOD,TO HEAVEN.
KEEP CALM AND COOL.
NEVER PANICK.
OR YOU WILL REGRET LIKE ME
I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU,
MY DEAR FRIEND.
I LOVE YOU.
hmm.ok.byebye.
off to my dream land.
into a dream that i wished that it will never vanish.
goodnight world.
goodnight to you.
*misunderstandings can always be cleared*
--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--
8/15/2006 11:21:00 PM
