theLAMB* once hadMARY`

Monday, August 28, 2006

i must make it tomorrow.
MUST.
i have failed once.
i cant fail another time.
im really scared.
im not prepared.
im so dead.
im going to eat big teppans!
i really have no wish.
or intention to retake any modules.
or to retake the paper.
i dont want.
NO..I DONT.
i will be a nightmare.
bring me out of my thoughts.
for i could not concentrate at all.
ANYONE OUT THERE CAN SAVE ME?
NO! THERE ISNT!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

wish me all the best people.
im off to my sleep.
my energy sleep.
to prepare me for the challenge tml!
BYE.

*ihateintht.ithatesmetoo.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/28/2006 10:35:00 PM

maddness.
today i reached the lib at like 845.
and guessed what there was a LONG queue.
i really meant long queue.
i had to be so kiasu to the extend to run into the lib and wait for that door to open.
and run in immd to chop the seats.
another girl was fighting with me la.
but thank god i reach out for the seats first.LOL.
and she said,shit.
i felt so guilty but luckily she found another seat!=D

anyway i sl reminded me that i forgot to blog about something.
that day,tuesday i think.
after studying,we went to study at BK.
then we went to eat at tekka mall.
then there was this pervertic man.
staring at us.smiling.
EEEKKKSS.
we were so irritated and scared.
he like keep staring at us.
then tell his frens about us.etc...
but whatever it is...
we left the place asap.

hmm.yeap..then today was studying.
then went to bugis to eat with sl.
for lunch.
then we were approached by these 2 guys.
one old man look scary to me though.
like an old ah beng gangster.
haii.they wanted us to buy this pen to do some charity.
then sl bought it before.so she didnt want to buy.
and guessed what.
they cornered me to a side.
i was really terrified.
i feel being forced and stuff.
then sl helped me and i quickly rejected to whatever they say.
oh man.
after that a tear of fright rolled down my cheeks.
i was really.
errmm.i dont know whats that word.shocked out bah.

yeap.thats all for the weird people that i meet.=((

hmm.bad leah.i am having stomach problems now.
its killing me.
wonder what i eat today that caused such pains.
i was trying so hard to do toilet business due to the pain i had.
but i really cant.
i was so painful that i cried in the toilet.
finally.it was released.
but even so.the pain hasnt gone at all.
only for a while.
now,im at home.
and the pain is insufferable.='((

but i guess i will be alright.
or i def will.=D

OH YA.I HAVE TO ANNOUNCE SOMETHING HERE.
OR I WILL BE SLAPPED!
LOL.
THANKS XY FOR THE COLLAGE THAT YOU MADE FOR ME.
THAT SPECIAL ONE.
AND THE COLLAGE THAT YOU MADE FOR ME AND SANDY.
HOW SWEET CAN YOU BE?
HMM.BUT ITS STILL GOES DOWN THE ROAD TO MY CREDITS.
AFTERALL,IM THE ONE WHO TAUGHT YOU HOW TO MAKE THEM.LOL.

lol.woohoo.ok..anyway being with sl and xy gets me all crazy.
woots.we were so kua zhang to the extent of teddying
that we were reluctant to leave the lib.
that the security guard has to keep chasing us out.
lol.and we couldnt just end the game once and for all.
that we have to go to the foodcourt to continue with our challenge.LOL.
being with them has never not been fun before.
crazy people.
i must not teddy so much.
or i will fail my exams!=((

ok..off i go.
will try my best to sleep.
with the pain.
the pain in my stomach.=((
goodnights people.
goodnights LOVES.

*i wana be your remeo,hey juliet!*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/28/2006 12:56:00 AM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

woohoo.
had a good long rest today.
all happy and energetic!
haven been blogging for like 3 days??
LOL.been really busy man.
dont blame me.=((
mugging.mugging.mugging.
what a pathetic life i have here.

thursday:
can you believe it?
i actually manage to go to the lib MYSELF.
although i overslept again.
but thank god,xy called me to check if i wake up already.
LOL.i went to study in the lib myself.
studied from 9am to 4pm.
ALL BY MYSELF!
wooohoo.
then xy and sl came to join me.=))
at first i still thought that it will be pathetic for me to study all alone.
like a loner.
i hate that at first.
i thought i would be able to make it.
but i did.
actually its nothing much to study alone.
in fact,i can focus more.much more.
LOL.but the thought of the fact that i studied myself irks me.

friday:
OB exam.
haii.it sucks.i swear.
wth.the paper aint hard at all.
but i lost like 14 marks.
the ten marks that i lost was dumb.
utterly dumb.
its such a simple question.
but its so simple that i couldnt think of that simple answer.
my brain thought that they wouldnt be so nice to give us free marks.
i didnt thought of that simple dumb answer.
im dumb.
so i wrote crap.and there goes my 10 marks.
GONE.
haii.but its ok.think i can pass the paper.
and thats enough.
ok maybe not.
cause i swear...i really study hard for them.
really.
"you reap what you sow"
this aint true at all.AINT!
ok..enough of something that i cant do anymore.
because its already over!
shall concentrate in my other subjects.
hmm.then i went to the lib to meet sl.
studied with her.
then xt came along.
made new frens there-sl's frens.
LOL.xt also became BEST friend with one of sl's fren!!LOL
dinner!
sl and i thought that we should study more.
so we went to JB mac to study!
its 24-hour.=D
hmm.then we finally couldnt concentrate anymore.
sl then started to try to play the games in my lappy.
LOL.and i got mad and crazy.
getting her on her nerves!
getting her all panicky and tensed.
she won more trophys than me in the teddy game.
i must beat her.LOLLLL.
we were really tired.
its 3am and we decided to go home.
she came my house to stay over,by the way.
hmm.we chatted though.
it was a great chat.

-sl darling.
im sorry darlg.
for the mistake that i made in the past.
for that feeling that i give you.jealousy.
that made you drift away from me.
somehow i felt that i lost you.
really.
but whats over cant be undone.
you have you new found best friend.
and im glad for you.
and no matter what...i know we are still close friends.
that fact will never change,am i right??
hope i am.really.
to me,this fact will never change.never.=D.
i love you darling.i really do.

-xt
its great catching up with you.
hmm.i realised that you have always been an impt fren to me.
and i really cannot lose you anymore.
like how i did in pri 6,
for whatever unknown foolish mistakes that i make.
im sorry my baby.
im utterly sorry.
but i got to tell you that.
im glad we patch up.
and that you had never left me.
please tell me next tiem when you are unhappy about me.
you are a fren that i dont wish to lose.
not anymore.
its painful,oh yes,it definitely is.
I LOVE YOU,AND I WILL ALWAYS DO.

saturday:
woohoo.damn tired throughout the days of studying already.
decided that i should just take a day off to rest.
so i did nothing today.
woke up at around 7pm???LOL
people dont scold me!
haha.but yeah...feeling all energetic now.
LOST IS A HAPPY GIRL.
but feeling a tinge of guiltness though.
didnt study at all today.
but.tml im back to being hardcore!
LOL.going to the lib at 830am.
studying till 9pm.=D
so i guess its alright to slack a day,yar?

-qian.
we are not entertaining your shit.
we are definitely willing to be there,just for you.
and why is this so?
thats definitely because we loved you.
you are our darling.
and thats because you accepted us into part of your life.
you made us your special one.
someone whom you thought of when you are sad.
and thats enough to make us feel so special.
so loved.
and thats all it matters.
we also know that for a fact..
you will definitely be there for us too.
in times of our need.
to lend us your listening ear too.
listening to our shit.
hearing us ranting all the way.
and thats enough.
thats all we needed.
isnt it so?am i wrong to say so?
i love you my dear friend out there.
remember,you are someone whom we look for in times of need.
thats all you need to do when we look for you.
to be there.to lend us your ears to absorb rubbish that we are gg to throw in.
LOVES!
a small lil hug from you,
thats all i need to be comforted.
a sweet lil smile from your face.
thats all i need to be happy too.
a sweet lil msg to say you love us.
thats all i need to know that im being loved,being existing.
a sweet lil space in your heart,just for us.
thats all i need for a place for me to be in.

ok its late already.i promised sl to sleep early today.
so i better go and sleep!
woohoo.hope tml will be a fruitful day.
it had to be!

*yesterday has already past,tml we shall create more memories.sweet sweet ones.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/27/2006 02:47:00 AM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

yahoo!!!!!
i proved them wrong man!
LOL.i woke up on time.
though i was still late.as i only manage to reach at 845am
but i was still there before the lib opens ok!
lol.they were so speechless!haha.
bu yao xiao kan LOST de li hai,ok!!
hahaha.
hmm.brought my lappy to the lib today.
hmm.i can say its a bad first move of mine.
couldnt really concentrate with lappy in front of me.
so i didnt really study much
ended up playing and playing.
chatting and chatting.
hmm.but in the end,i manage to finish up my intht.
which was already half completed yesterday.
and started on econs.
currently im at lecture 8.
so yeap.im quite glad though.
i think im ahead of time! yahoo!all thanks to my frens.
without them,i wouldnt have the discipline to study at all.

BIG BULLY.
CONGRATS.
but im so sad.
you belong to someone else now.=((
LOL

-xy
thanks for the nice wallpaper that you made for me.
thats really sweet.
although i was the one who taught you how to do it.=x
anyway good luck for your stats man.
you look so stressed up.
i was so scared.

-sl,
dont take THOSE CHILDISH people's comment too hard.
you know.
you will only let them feel like they have won.
and you are only a loser in their eyes.
give them a smile.
let them feel jack.
and they will give up and back off.
i know its really hard.
but this people are just aint sensitive.
let your BIG heart accept this small tiny people.=D

mary,
haii.dont think too much k.
those frens of yours are just being childish out there.
they didnt even bother about you.
but i guess what you have to do now.
is just to be trueful and straightforward.
and tell him..BACK OFF.
or you are only going to hurt yourself!!!
yay man.you can do it.

-boy.
hmm.i have no idea whats going on at the moment.
hence i cant really say much here.
but i just wana let you know that if you needed someone.
and you cant find any,
just turn around.
im always behind you.i love you boy.
dont worry,even without tissues,
i have my shoulder and clothes for you to wipe your tears off.=x.
for now,i shall give you all my courage to move on,
till after exams.
mwahs.

-btyz,
thanks for that sweet lil msg of encouragement for me.
at that moment,
when i was struggling with the books,
i really needed that.
it perks me up indeed.

yeap.today is a rather tedious day,
although i did nothing much.
but i really feel tired.
maybe it had been long since i tried to input so much information in my head.
its been so so long.

hmm.
i just dont uds how can so many people be so insensitive.
sometimes,you may see it as a joke.
but when this jokes get increasingly too much,
the person might not be able to take it anymore.
especially when you have hit the weakness point.
haii.maybe its perception bah.
the perception that you thought the other party wouldnt take it too hard.
since he/she has never before.
but when he/she nevers,it doesnt mean
that he/she wont forever.

anyway,im so thanks to all.
who thought of me,when they needed someone to relate to.
thanks.
although i always cant be of much help,
but im always glad to find out that im someone that you can rely on,
and looked for in times of need.
I LOVE YOU PEOPLE.

im in a dilemma! help!
i want to go back to km8 work due to the good pay.
but there are many reasons stopping me from going back.
i really dont know how,
but i dont wish to spend a unhappy holiday,
when i have already been so stressed up in school.
i need a break.i really do.

*all that matters is just a smile in your eyes.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/24/2006 01:01:00 AM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

utterly disappointed.LOL.
in the end.LOST CANT DO IT AT ALL.
failure.i am.
suppose to wake up at830am.
and go to the lib to reserve the seats for my frens.
however.i ended up waking up at 300pm.
LOL.how pig can i get?i wonder.

hmm.in the end.theres no seats.
not a single one.
ended up studying at tekka mall BK.
all i can say is.how unproductive we were.
haii.maybe because of me.
kept chatting and munching all the way.
LOL.ok im suppose to be on a diet.=p

anyway,I MUST WAKE UP AT 8OOAM tml.
i must prove xy and sl wrong ok!
they say i sure cannot wake up one.
sure will late de.
i must show them i wont!
i really wont.
LOST.if you still want to keep some dignity of yours,
WAKE UP.and stop being sucha pig.LOL.

ok.anyways.manage to arrange a date
with twinny and my 11 years of frenship girl!
LOL.lost is happy.
we are so gona catch up.and take loads and loads of photos.
a thousand,maybe?=x
i miss sissy alot.really.and i realise i have no photos of her.
and thats bad.thats sad.
hmm.
our plan is to go and watch a movie
followed by SAKAE SUSHI BUFFET.
wooohoo.my all time favourite.
and im so going to get fat.or rather fatter.
hmm.twinny suggest watching horror movie.
and im shock.you can nvr imagine my reaction.
she never watches horror movie.
cause shes afraid of them.but this time round.
oh man!LOLLL.=x

yeap.ok.so many plans coming up for the hols.
im so god damn excited.
marina south.date with twinny.tanning with cliquey.
kboxing with ls.and many many more.
and i still got to work.
oh man.how am i suppose to manage?
LOL.please dont say im acting busy or popular alrights?=x
haha.ok i just got to struggle one more week.and exams will end.

hmm.xy and the others.
please stop telling me that your exams end this week,alrights
im sad.LOL.
IM JEALOUS.I REALLY AM.
ok.chill.just one more week and thats it.LOL.

to hs:
goodluck to you.
for your piano exams.
you know you can do it.
i know it too.
all the best.
=))

alrights.
im really tired too.despite the LARGE number of hours that i sleep.
i better go off now.
or i will really be late tml, according to their bets.and confidence.
LOL.okok.gone.

*take a chill pill and chill it out*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/23/2006 02:13:00 AM

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/23/2006 02:13:00 AM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

another day is over.
what can i say.
time passed really fast.
and thats abit sad.

xy,im sorry.i really am.
you know what im sorry for.
i didnt mean it.
dui bu qi.
i will make it up to you de.
i promise.

ok.anyway was suppose to meet xy at 830 am.
but i woke up late.
woke up at 0930??
haii.thats bad.
then something crops up.
nd i got stuck in the toilet.
and so on and so forth.
i only manage to reach like at 12?
dui bu qi.
i made her waited for me all by herself till that time.
haii.its my fault.

ok.but wah.today is a productive day.i could say.
we really startes mugging.
and we were really concentrating.
except that we have to keep going to the toilet due to the much water intake.
and the fact that we are hungry and have to go for lunch break.
and the better fact that after lunch break,we got so lazy.
so slack that we, or maybe i, only manage to pick ourselves up after only a few hours.?
then we were back to the fully concentrating mode again.
i can say.im happy.
i manage to finish OB.
and im 3/4 through intht.
so im left with RHT and microecons which im going to start tml.
hmm.nobody is going to go with me tml in the morning.
xy is only going to reach at around 5pm cause she has exams in the morn.
so i will be alone in the morn.
and thats an obstacle as theres sure no motivation in me
to drive me to wake up in the morning to go to the lib.

but okay,LOST CAN DO IT.
you can right? i believe in you.=D
one more week to go and you are all free!
hais.and that means it marks the end of 1h04.
sobsobsob.okay.stop emoing.thats bad.
just finished reminiscing the past when i was still in my uniform.
haii.and all tat got me emoing again.
i missed them.ALL OF THEM.
and i will miss 1h04.ALL OF THEM TOO.
you know who you are.

anw,eh,im sorry ok.
i had to be trueful.
as i dont wish that you will hold on to this hope of yours.
which is never going to come true.
im sorry if i hurt you in any ways.
but,pardon me.i dont wish to hurt u any further.
frens.and just frens.

*once a polky,always a polky.LOL.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/22/2006 12:16:00 AM

Monday, August 21, 2006

damn tired out.
woke up at 8am. to meet my friends to study at national lib at 9am.
we were all late.
so reach there at around 915.
i thought i was already hardcore enough.
but guess what.?
there are more hardcore people in these world.
REALLY.
i reach at 915.and there isnt anymore seats left in the study lounge.
how pathetic we were la.
so we ended up sitting at the sofa.
and thats how it made our day so unfruitful.
the sofa is far too comfy and cosy.
we felt as though we were at home.the need to study is not there.
i didnt study much today.
abit sadded.

lol.but its ok.cause we are like meeting at 8 am tml
in order to queue outside the lib at around 830.
so that we will have space to seat.
i know im being abit kiasu and kuazhang here.
but its true its true.
i heard that the people do queue to get into the lib these days to study.
LOL.so im not that hardcore though.
and i definitely hope that tml will be a more fruitful day.
i no longer have anymore time to slack.
and im not lying.
unless i wana retake the module again.
and i think thats going to be the worst thing that is going to happen to me.
seriously.im scared.

anyway toked to the BIG BULLY today online.
getting all emo here and there.
had a heart to heart talk though.
a tiny winy one.LOL.
what you said has really touched me.
maybe because of the way you put it.
the way you said it made me felt so loved.
so treasured.
so important.
not many has manage to make me feel this way though.
and i think friends who made the others feel this way are friends that i really cherished.
because i can feel that you,too,cherished me.
thanks for letting know im nice.
and thanks for letting know how you felt.although its not only in mine.
LOL.i must say that its the same bah.
the comfy as what i told you.
u are def different from the others.
really.i already said i loved you.
but you always reject my love!LOLL.
so stop rejecting them for once!
hahhaha.but yeap.no matter what i wana tell you that.
i really love you.i really do.i swear.
this time is no longer a joke,or the normal tags that we played.
this time i really meant it from the bottom of my heart.
really.dont ever question them ok.

haii.ok but im really afraid to change class.
really afraid.
i dont want to make new friends anymore.
im just comfortable with now.
with you.
although we have only spent 118 days together,
but we are already so close to one another.
haii.our kbox and everything we went through.

ok.STOP EMOING.
i really have to stop.
haii.but BIG BULLY.
stop thinking so much.
cause i really do love you.
and i trust that we wont drift apart.
moreover we already gou gou shou already.
better dont break the promise.

*im glad you told me so.touched i am.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/21/2006 01:00:00 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

woah.what a surprise i got today.
eh was online.and he came to chat with me.
lol.loss at words to say.
but wtf.i hate it when guys ego came up.
and i felt like a total fool when he said he was kidding.
f***.what kidding.i don care if you really are or not.
it just f***ing pissed me off.

lol.went to seek help though.

-darling.thanks for your help though.
i know who i should look for if it happens again.
i know he wont survive.
you are definitely of help.
.uoyevoli.uoyssimi.

i dont think i should go for his pop bah.
go there and rot meh.
i know i wil be very bad.
afterall this is the bday present the person want.
but im not obliged to give a bday present to him right?
yes.im not.i know.
im nothing to him.or perhaps hes nothing to me.
pardon me for being so bad.
but im only dared to be bad here.
and not to him directly.
maybe because im harmless.LOLL.
im kidding ok people.

yeap.oh shit.i slacked like mad today.
i shall not announce the time i wake up today
or i will be killled by my frens soon.
but fred not.
tml im going to meet my dearies at NINE am to study at the lib.
we are hardcores man.=x

haha.okok.nothing much happen today.
just got shock and scared.

*you bothers me,really.u scared the hell out of me.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/20/2006 02:36:00 AM

Saturday, August 19, 2006

woohoo.
yesterday was too tired.
so decided to blog today.
yay.i manage to send the collage on time.
and manage to amend it on time.
but so sad.
it wasnt to perfection.
but its ok.my darling likes it.
LOVE!

anyway,thursday was wq's bday.
so she was celebrating at kbox,
and invited me and ls to go.
woohoo.so honored!
yeap.but it was a lil expensive though.
cause i didnt sing many songs.
but its ok.its all worthwhile for her.=)
yeap.and they thought me how to play bridge.
oh no.im hooked at it.addiction.
then took a cab back with ls to catch lsj's concert.
thank god,we are on time.
although we were seated rather far.
but its ok.all i can say is that his songs are good.
DAMN good.
it got me going crazy over him now.
or maybe crazy over his songs.
a pity he is not good looking.SIGH.
but yeah.no matter what,ls and i were still mad.
we were like commenting how not good looking he was.
and stuff like such...then he walked up to our area.
and we started going mad.
mad about trying to get his hands to shake it.LOL.
but cant deny the fact that normal human beings.
at the sight of superstar.
would go crazy bah.despite ugly or goodlooking.
=)).but overall it was a fun time.
*glad that you liked all our presents
and most imptly the collage i made.*

then friday,a sad day.
last day of proper school with my class bah.
cause we are changing class next sem already.
so sad.
i dont wana part with all my darlings.
my cliquey group.
the guys.though they always irritate me.
im going to miss them.
and no one could replace them any further.
yeah.so today was counted as the last day bah.
but i spent it to the fullest with all my darlings.

today we had to submit our commskills proj.
rushed it out due to some problems.
then stayed on in school with ls,bt,wq,ty,jim.

at first me,ls,bt were playing nonsense games.
for eg.paper aeroplanes.LOL.
and trying to piggy bag each other
that was the first time i allowed someone to piggy back me
or i can say is that ls,u have alot of STRENGTH!
haha.yeah then after that.wq has nothing to do too.
then jim offered cards for us.
then we started playing BRIDGE!
hurray!! taught bernice how to play it too.
LOL.we were having so much fun playing bridge in school.
that we lost track of time.
we left the school at around 7.40pm.
the six of us hang on till the end.
then we parted.
that marks the final end of our class being together.
other than exam times though.
it marks the end im going to be so happy with my darlings.
oh man.i feel like crying.
i love them.i swear i do!

im really tired already.
shall go and sleep
in order to wake up early tml
so that i can start studying tml for exams!
im not prepared!

*i will miss the times where we shared heart to heart talks.
i will miss the times where you guys irritate me
and i laughed like a mad woman
i will miss the times with you all.
to be precise,its actually all the times spent.='(*

*the 118 days spent with you all will never be forgotten.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/19/2006 01:49:00 AM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

sobs. im sorry dearie.
i really didnt mean to lose it.
that symoblic token of our friendship.
i really didnt know how did it dropped out.
i really tried my best to find it back.
i really did.i crawled all over the floor to find it.
i tracked my way back to find it.
but i really cant find it.
i really cant. i cried and cried.
but i know its not going to come back. how?
i know you are not going to forgive me.
i dont know how to tell you. i called you.
but your phone is not on.
what am i suppose to do?
maybe i should go and find a new one.
and think of how to tell you. SIGH.

anyway. i have something big to announce.
my darling's birthday is today!
17 of august 2006!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLG.

continue to rock on in my life.
and shine like a star.
hope that you will enjoy every single minute tml.
smile.smile.smile.
remember friends can go through life storms together.
LOL.

once again.happy birthday.
sheng re kuai ler!=))

i love you,girl. mwahs.

haii.i really hope i can find that lost thing again.
please.let it be found.

oh yessss!tml im going to li sheng jie's concert in TP!
im god damn excited for it!
LOL.although i dont really like him.
but his songs are nice. really!
i hope s.h.e or JJ will come!
I WONT MIND JIE LUN COMING AT ALL!
I SERIOUSLY DONT.
AHHHHHHHHH.

so thats it for now! lol.
i should get back to my studies already! smile.=))

*please let me find you.back in my life*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/17/2006 12:11:00 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

ahhhh.
didnt go to school today.
had a bad diarrhoea last night.
and of course this morning.
but i guess its alright now le bah.
haiis.
took a very good rest though.
to prepare myself for the upcoming exams.
LOL.
im seriously not ready!

anyway i have many many things that i want to say
to my dearest xy!
hmm.
im glad we toked today.
im really glad to find out how you actually felt.
im serious.
all the while..i felt it was ws who snatched you away from us.
away from me.
in the past, you have showed me that..only he is in your world.
and of course we are no longer needed.
but xy ni bian ler.
you finally woke up and realised our presence.
our importance.
i always felt that ws has entered your heart.
and you have chased us out.
no longer having a space for this friendship to get in.
now like what you have said,
ni zhang da ler.
and assured me that i have always been in your heart.
in that very special place.
just that in the past.you couldnt see us.
just that you didnt turn on the lights to realise we were there.
in your eyes you could only see him.
now,its my turn to let you know.
we have never left you.
never.
its just that we were disappointed in you.
we felt that we could no longer get in and stay there.
thats why.
but you have never left us.
never.
never in mine.
if you were to try and find me.
you will realise.im not far away.
i am really not.
give me a call and i'll be there.
i really will.
we are so near.yet so far.
but fear not.
from now on.just give me a call ok?
we will go down to liao tian!
back to our old sweet times.
you have always been my closest fren.
and you will continue to be.
like what i always say,
i wont forsake you till the day you forsake me.
so be prepared,for im going to stick to you for life.
from now one,every sec,bear in mind.
im always here for you girl.
ALWAYS.
i love you,girl.
i really do.
mwahs.

hmm..thats about it.
but the conversation with xy really touched my heart.
really.
it felt so heartwarming.
and i welcome my old sweet her back.
or perhaps she has never been gone.
she was just lost.
lost like me.
losing her way,away from us.
her words made me smile.
but made me cry.
im sorry if i ever made you feel that you are all alone.
im sorry that i made you felt that we are away from you.
im sorry that you felt lost.
im sorry that i made you felt neglected.
im sorry that i made you felt that i was taken away.
im sorry to make you feel that we are far far away,never here for u.
im sorry for everything that i made you feel.
but fred not.
im back
you are back.
and of course we are all back to the times.
the old oldie times.i love them.
i love this feeling.
i love you.
i love us.all of us.

-boy,
what happened to you?
i hope you are fine.
i know you dont wished to share.
but its ok.
i know when you feel like sharing,
you will.
and if you feel that you cannot take it anymore
and urgently needed someone,
feel free to find me ok?
im always here.
please dont treat this as an empty promise.
because i have never said it out of any moment of folly.
or for any fun.i meant what i say.
no matter what,
you are not alone ok?
or maybe never alone.
i love you.

To SL:
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR O LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL
I WISHED YOU ALL YOUR LUCK.
PLEASE DO NOT LET FEAR TO TAKE CONTROL IN YOU.
PLEASE DO NOT BE LIKE ME,
AND LET THE HISTORY REPLAYED ITSELF.
I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF
AND HAVE FAITH IN GOD.
JUST DO YOUR BEST,
GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT,
AND LEAVE ALL THE REST TO GOD,TO HEAVEN.
KEEP CALM AND COOL.
NEVER PANICK.
OR YOU WILL REGRET LIKE ME
I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU,
MY DEAR FRIEND.
I LOVE YOU.

hmm.ok.byebye.
off to my dream land.
into a dream that i wished that it will never vanish.
goodnight world.
goodnight to you.

*misunderstandings can always be cleared*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/15/2006 11:21:00 PM

Monday, August 14, 2006

bad day.
sick.
finally its my turn.
today morning woke up as if i was playing merry-go-round.
my whole room was like turning and turning.
then next i vomitted.
have been vomitting the whole day today.
felt so sick and yet i still went to sch.
thought i felt better.
but when i reach home,
diarrhoea is the next to come.
my ass hurts now.
and i feel damn sick.
this feeling sucks.
wanqian.i understand how you feel ler.
i really do.cause im going through the same thing.
and i swear it really sucks.
im really hungry
but i cant eat.
oh man.
i eat.i puke.
what a world.
nvm..maybe its good.
because it can make me lose weight.
but such a fcuking lousy way to lose weight.
i rather be fat.
haii.
offss ler.
im sad.really sad.

*pain.pain.and more pain*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/14/2006 07:34:00 PM

oh yah.
today went to eat with my dearest
at our old hangout place.
a place of fear,where we used to study at.
LOL.
ta dah!!! JB MAC!
lol.ate macs.
then we headed to the playground to liao tian!
finally my dream had come true.
we finally liao tian.
i yearn for more of such sessions.
MORE MORE MORE!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!
but wait for me to be sad ok!
haha.selfish me!-u know what im toking abt-
hmmm.

something i really wish to say to the dearie you.
from you,
i can see real friendships.
true ones.
i swear im not lying.
you are always the first i thought of.
and if you are sneezing, it must be me thinking of you.
i swear.
you made me uds that frens are much more worth anything.
and you have proven that its more than a truth.
i love you my dear fren.
im not forcing you to tell me everything in your life.
but i hope that if you needed someone to tok.
you can always look for me.
and count on me,
although i could only be a listener.
but my shoulders can definitely be relied on.
i cant promise you anything.
but i wont forsake you till the day you forsake me.
i hope we can prove the eternity of frenships.
and how we are going to grow old with one another.
i love you,my dearie.
you always hold a deep frenship place in my heart.
now and forever.
mwahs.
.wo ai ni.wo xiang ni.

*true friendship is what i see in your eyes*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/14/2006 03:18:00 AM

wanted to blog yesterday.
but seriously i dont have the heart to do so.
but i really want to tell the world.
that the fireworks really rocks.
but so sad.
beautiful things are shortlived.
duan zan er mei li.
BUT I SERIOUSLY DONT REGRET WATCHING IT.
ALTHOUGH FAST YET IT WILL BE REMEMBERED.
photos of the fireworks will be post up.
LOL.
hmm.exams are coming yeah.
the blog will be badly neglected so yeaps.
im going to track down that couple charm thingy
so that i can buy for my honey and me.
then we will have it on our customised bracelet.
woosssh..
i love her.
but im not a les ok!
lol.
ok maybe a tiny winny bit.LOL.
ok wish me luck,world.
im going to start studying!
goodbye.

toHS
i really love you
i am really glad that you are feeling better.
i am really glad that my existence did help a bit.
i am really glad that in times of trouble, you came to look for me.
i am really glad to know you too.
i am really glad to receive that sweet msg of yours.
i am really glad to have a song written by you.
i am really glad to have you in my life.
i am really glad.
really.

*fortunate me with so many sweet lil frens*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/14/2006 12:19:00 AM

Friday, August 11, 2006

hmm.
why are so many people crying?
crying for all different kind of problems?
i have a wish.
a wish that everyone stays happy.
happy with their life
happy with anything.
happy that they have friends.
happy that they are still living.
although i didnt manage to be happy everyday myself.
but im happy many other days.
smile people smile.
dont let these problems bring you down.
fight them.
fight it and win the victory in your life.

to boy,
its good to see you really happy these days.
its good to really see you smile.
its good to know that everything is alright for you now.
it makes me feels good too.
makes me feel relieve for you.
please stay in this way.
i pray that nothing will happen anymore.
i like you the way you are now.
the face filled with smiles everyday.
=))))

to YOU,
you can
you should
you must
and you will.
we will help you along.
carry you through.
we love you.
we are here.cheering you on.
rock on girl.
you will be one hot one.=DD

to men's hunt sister!.
jiayou girl!
you know you can do it.
you have done your best.
just leave everything to heaven and you will know it tml.
dont cry for something when you havent found out the actual results.
there might have been a surprise for you.
you wont know.
no matter what, give me a call and i will be here for you.
i will pray for you ok?
goodluck girl.
wish you all the best.
message me yeah?

LOL.
imposter jj is going to join men's hunt and jue dui superstar!!!!
LOL.
im sorry SL.but i cant stop laughing!
although i know hes not joining
but who knows?
he really MIGHT!!!

okaes.im really tired now.
byebye.

-losing blood is a good thing.it clears up your body!!!
so that you will be healthy and strong!!!-
LOL.

*oofffffssssss.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/11/2006 12:39:00 AM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

sigh.didnt go sch today.
stomach was rather upset this morning.
had gastric pain.
ate my medicine and slept all the way.
i really meant all the way.
until a fren of mine called me.
sigh.

to YOU.
please dont do anything stupid can?
promise me dear?
i swear its not worth it.
i swear.
i know you can do it.
to pull yourself together.
you dont have to do it yourself.
we will support you.
we will go through this with you.
most importantly, we care.
we really do.
we love you.
and this love of ours are definitely more worth it.
take care dear.
i love you.

to SL.
i pray and pray.
praying real hard.
praying that everything will be fine for you tml.
praying that it will turn out well.
sms me ok?
good luck to you.
all the best.
dont worry ok.
it will turn out fine.=D

okaes.thats all for today.
didnt do anything much though.
just felt really sad when my fren is sad.
could really feel how painful her heart is going through.
but no matter what i hope she can stand up and move on.
yeah.

-probably thats what they say..
the ugly side of love-

byebye.off to my bcs.
learning how a computer works.
answering four essay questions on them.
its dumb.
it really is.

*when will i ever be found?*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/10/2006 07:48:00 PM

wahahhaa.
today i had a great day.
went out to meet my honey today in town.
couldnt wake up in the morning though
despite having morning calls by frens.
but i swear they dont have the ability wake me up.
cause they themselves are falling asleep.
thats bad leah.
but im damn excited to meet my honey today.
so this great determination of mine pulled me up from my bed.
my comfy sleeping zone.
lol.

no doubt.
i had great fun with my honey.
went kbox to sing..sing...sing..
sang many new songs..
and songs that we both loved.
but was rather sad that there isnt -i think i-
our all time favourites.
am i right to say so?!
lol.
yeah whatever it is..had k lunch.
i think its pretty..
urmm.bad!
lol.
then we went ahead to shop.shop for the clothes needed by her.
ran to many places and finally found the bottom!
yayness!
then we spotted this really nice accessories.
lol.but creative her has thought of something new!
WE ARE SO GOING TO MAKE THAT THING!
alrights??! can we?? pplllleeeeaaaasssseeeeee!!!!!!
*our ding qing xing wu*
LOL.
then we felt real hungry!
real real hungry mann!
was waiting for a fren to come.
but we couldnt take it anymore.
decided to go ahead with eating first.
lol.pigs,we are!
ate at new york new york.
the food there is great.
but i just dont understand...
why do they love to clear the plates so much?!!!
*you know what im toking about yar?
hmm.then copy the stuff.and headed home.

lol.but i have to emphasis something..
the joke of the day!
i found out something new!
I DIDNT KNOW SHOPPING DEHYDRATES.
LOL.
DRINK MORE WATER WHEN YOU ARE SHOPPING OKAES?!

hmm.a day of fun i could say.
the tings that we talked.
the mad laughter of ours.
the smile on your face.
the tinge of happiness felt.
the crappiness of ours...
our gossips..
i love them all.=DD

.oh god.
what could i say?
i love my HONEY!
HONEY MAKES MY LIFE SWEET.
AND ITS GOING FAR TOO SWEET.
FARRRRR TOOOO.

.iloveyou.thatsallicouldsay.

*l0st&found.sweetened with honey.*

--#LOSTonceHAD MARY--

8/10/2006 12:02:00 AM